We finally know our next step! At least, we know when what we think might be our next step is scheduled to happen. Did I lose you?
I am hesitant to plan on my plans. Our plans have fallen through in so many ways over the last few years, that planning seems almost futile. We thought this next doctor, this next procedure, this next medication, this rest would do the trick. We thought domestic infant adoption was the perfect fit, until it just did not feel right for us. Now, we take tentative steps toward foster care/adoption. But will foster care and adoption be where we land? Only God knows.
Life is so fluid. My husband and I have been surprised several times about the changes in each other. One year ago, the thought of never having a newborn would have brought me to tears. Now, we are both open to missing that phase. A few months ago, the idea of never having children at all would have caused a negative gut reaction. Now, I recognize that I have no idea what is around the corner. I would be surprised to learn that God gave us a passion for adoption without planning for us to adopt, but stranger things have happened. James 4:13-15 is good to keep in mind through any season, but it feels especially applicable to us these days:
Anyway, back to our next steps. We finally connected with the person in charge of foster care in a county nearby. The first step in the approval process is attending an information session, so our plan is to attend the next session on February 10. Now that I have made our plan public, we can all hold our breath to see what happens. I have also learned about the steps after that one, but let's take this one step at a time.