Anniversaries are a time to look back. As one year has passed since the boys arrived, I find myself looking back to those days and beyond. My thoughts linger on sweet memories with the boys and the sadness of their departure. Then I look farther back to the rollercoaster of infertility.
In many ways, I feel like we have emerged from a fog of struggle and can breathe again. Without the fog, I can see more clearly while looking back. And I am grateful.
Those years of struggle culminated into an intense few months of foster care. And the people around us rose up. Never before have I experienced so many people doing so many kind things. In the midst of it all, I was unable to process everything, let alone send thank-you cards or properly express my gratitude. Now, I want to try (to express my gratitude, not to write thank-you cards). Better late than never, right?
In looking back, I see so many things to be grateful for. Please do not be offended if yours is not mentioned. If you reached out, thank you.
From the infertility phase:
- The friends and family members who cried with us, prayed for us, and encouraged us.
- The sweet girls at church who made sure to include me when handing out flowers to moms on Mother's Day.
- The friends and family members who worked to be friends with us when their families grew and ours did not.
- The infertility comrades who opened up about their own struggles.
From the foster care phase:
- The many, many friends who brought us meals.
- The people from near and far who gave us everything from toys and books to beds and clothing.
- The other foster families who became teammates.
- The overwhelmed moms who managed to come with meals, music, hugs, and encouragement.
- The people who dropped everything to come when we needed help.
I do not know how we would have survived these last few years without each of you who came alongside us. Thank you.